Part Six – January 2018
A wise man once told me that it’s not about whether i’m good enough… It’s about others being worthy of me.
It took some time for that lesson to sink in, and for me to realize that He’s right. It is about knowing my worth, and choosing to only allow those who are deserving into my life.
Anyone who knows me, knows that i am very confident and secure in who i am and what i bring to the table. i don’t have time for jealousy. Not mine or anyone else’s. Insecurities? W/we all have them. Y/you deal with Y/yours. i’ll deal with mine. Not my circus. Not my monkeys. If Y/you bring Y/your monkeys to my table and are looking for advice on how best to deal with them, or just a friendly ear to listen? Sure. Pull up a cushion and we’ll talk. Let’s put those monkeys to bed once and for all, if W/we can.
A good portion of 2017 was spent rediscovering who i am as an individual. Dealing with my monkeys, if Y/You will. It was an interesting journey, and one that i’m going to continue well into 2018. That said, while i did learn a lot, there’s still so much more to figure out. The learning never ends. Life changes on the daily. i’m taking classes to help grow my awareness of myself, of other people and of the world around me. i’m journaling – often (kinda like this right here) and reflecting on the things that i’m learning as i go through each day/week.
That same wise man also told me… Life isn’t about the destination, it’s about the journey. He’s right, and what a ride it’s been so far!
i’ve made some friends along the way, and lost some as well. i’m learning to be more selective about not letting those who don’t enrich my experience take up a spot in the jigsaw puzzle of my life. Luckily, there haven’t been many “odd” pieces and my puzzle is filling out quite nicely.
Here’s to an amazing 2018! No NYR, per se, for me. Just a carrying on of the journey i’d already embarked on in 2017.
Part Seven – January 2018
Recently, i’ve been using a particular analogy when it comes to describing how i see my life and the way i plan to fill it.
my mom has always been a fan of saying, “I just want you to find someone to settle down with…” But there’s the rub… Why should i? Why should i settle down with one person, let alone”settle” at all?
Y/you see… here’s the way i look at it: W/we’re all the central puzzle piece in the puzzle that is O/our life. Every piece has multiple sides to it. So, by it’s very own nature (and O/ours) each piece has more than ONE piece that completes it.
Now, that being said, not every piece needs to be a romantic relationship or partner. One of my direct connecting pieces is one of my dearest friends. She’s my sister from another Mister. i could never imagine my life without her in it. She’s family. A person whose puzzle piece connects directly to a side of mine. Her puzzle fills out a portion of mine, and vice versa.
The same goes for Sir. O/our puzzles connect directly. His piece fits a side of mine. i can’t imagine a life without the big Weirdo in it. A benefit of His puzzle connecting to mine? Other amaaaaaazing P/people (aka puzzles/lives) connect to mine.
And so.. the puzzle grows bit by bit. As it goes, my life is filling up with love, friends and chosen family.
So, settling? Meh. Nah. i’m good. The puzzle that is my life is ah-mazing and i’m never going to settle. Ever. i deserve better, and so does my puzzle.